Sunday, September 16

Assalamualaikum.. :)

It has been ages since my last update.. is it? yeah i think so.. Eh2..

Assalamualaikum to all readers
(is there any? hope so.. hehe.. if not, let me be the story teller and let my future wife to read this blog in future.. hi my future wife.. i'm now in the middle of writing something for u.. anyway, if u read this, i'm 24 during this time.. :p )

Lately my life is getting busier with work and study..
Alhamdulillah, my CGPA for 1st semester is not bad at all.. considering i'm working in morning while attending class at night.. Dear,  i'm able to obtain 3.25 CGPA.. its not bad at all..so please, as u read this, i hope u r smiling (and perhaps, bring some present for me.. hihi)

As for working,
It has really being an enjoyable moment sayang. i do love my job and my team mates.. tho at some point there is  some argument, but they really become part of my family. u know sayang, i'm the youngest in my team as the next closer to me is already 31.. hehe.. but i'm sure, somebody will take my crown as the youngest in next years or after.. :D

My Dear,
As to date, many of my friend already getting married.. i'm not sure when is mine.. but at the moment. i do hope to meet u in near future.. i'll keep praying that Allah led me to the most blessing path. so i can continue growth to be a better khalifah in future.

as day passed by,i do realize also, my intention to become a businessman continuously increase. I saw many opportunity in place, but i just waiting for the right time for execution. I do love my job in TNB. but i dont want to waste my time either untuk 'makan gaji' forever. I hope by 30, i can set another benchmark in my life. Which is to own an organization. Tho it might be such a small business.. but i'm totally happy if i can own one. When i say 'organization', it is not just for the sake of name and license of the company..i do target for business continuity in long term manner. (ok sound skema enough.. sayang u might get bored with this paragraph ryte? hihi. sorry)

sayang,
Day is getting closer for my bro engagement. He's getting married by next year. InsyaAllah. Same for my eldest sister as well. its all now depend on Allah faith. I'm too happy if their wish is granted by Allah.. Terutama untuk kak yati. Selepas pemergian arwah abang yus pada tahun 2008, anak-anak beliau membesar tanpa kasih sayang seorang bapa. Justeru ingin juga saya lihat anak-anak dia membesar sempurna seperti sahabat mereka yang lain.

Enough for the update sayang? hei, if u craving for more, why dont you go to me now (as u read this line), and ask me to story more.. (insyaAllah, if i do remembered any stories related till this entry date, i will share with u k.. hihi )

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i do love below song. Sang by Boyce Avenue - Someone like you.. in future i'm not sure whether i still love it.. (and will u able to listen to it sayang?) but for a moment, this song will continuously rang in my ear day after day..


*for you that i used to confess and express my feeling earlier, big thanks for sharing your joy and sadness with me before.*  

haa.. sayang, you may want to ask me bout above line right? go and ask me now.. hihi..

To all my friends, and readers (if any), i will like to make sincere apologize for any mistakes and sins i've made. thank you for continue to be with me and accept me as the way i'm.. i may be not perfect for you, but i really thankful for every moment u guys spend with me. If today be the last day i opened my eyes, i hope u guys can forgive me and continue to pray for my safety in thereafter. Moga Allah merahmati kita semua, dan sayangi keluarga anda k. Ingat! jangan lebihkan sayang kita terhadap orang lain lebih dari kita menyayangi Allah, Rasul, dan Keluarga kita sendiri.. InsyaAllah, moga Allah sentiasa membuka jalan untuk kita supaya terus istiqamah menjadi khalifah di bumi Allah.. amin.. 

Thursday, May 17

Alhamdulillah


Bismillah hirrahman nirrahim,
Assalamualaikum,

Jarang sekali aku buka lembaran blog ni dengan bismillah dan salam..
InsyaAllah, jika tidak pada kata, moga ia wujud pada hati..

Alhamdulillah..
Kenapa?

Dear,
today i realize a lot of things.. and as to date i totally glad with Allah.. on what Allah has gave me..

Dear,
today i went for an interview with Accenture. You know what my Senior Manager and Manager said?

Manager : "Ku, ensure you do your best for that.. but are u really want that job?"
Me : "its not bout the job.. i just seek for experience to develop my soft skill.. got or not is 2nd thing sir.
Manager : "Alhamdulillah. May Allah give the best for you.. How was ur Master?"
Me : "doing great sir. i'm enjoyed that :) "
Manager : "Are you planning to quit?"
Me : "not in near future sir.."
Manager : "If could, please stay with us.. U already part of our family.. seriously, we lost our one feet without you.. you have help us a lot"
Me : smile.. "well sir.. thanks for that.. never expect those word"
Manager : "Just do your best for today k"

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Senior Manager : "Ku, how was master?"
Me : "Ok puan. Enjoyed! :D "
SM : "Are u planning to quit?"
Me : "not in near future for sure"
SM : "If you prefer to stay, we are pleased too. you have becoming our important members and part of great team player"
Me : "thanks puan.." smiled :D


Dear,
Alhamdulillah, Allah has granted me a path. to be with people who appreciated me a lot.

Apart from that dear, today i already signed a doc for my housing loan. Alhamdulillah, at 24 finally i bought one for us to be used in future..

Dear,
Today also i saw mom cried. She so pleased knowing, finally i bought my own house.. Neway, i'm going to sign S&P this saturday. :)


Alhamdulillah.
To date, Allah has granted me with blessed and barakah. i wish i could be a good servant, khalifah, son, husband, and father. InsyaAllah will always seek blessing from Allah in everything i do..

Dear,
I pray as well, i could meet you someday..
Tho, i'm not sure when, but as u read this in future, i hope u r smiling.. u know dear, apart from Allah, Rasulullah, and family, i only have you and our kids to be with me. so to see u smile is a blessing..

Dear,
May u be my good wife here and thereafter..

Monday, April 23

JIKA tangisan itu berlaku ketika, saatnya terbentang sejadah di atas tanah..

Semakin kite cube perkuatkan iman kite, smakin kuat dugaan yang mendatang.. lantas, iman yang cube dibina atas asas yang kukuh, kembali rapuh sdikit demi sdikit..

"wah, skarang ni dah macam ustaz dah kat fb.. post things yang berunsur agama.. "

senyum...

iman itu tidak dinilai pada apa yang diperkatakan, juga bukan pada apa yang dipertontonkn.. jika seseorang manusia itu tahu berapa nilai iman pada suatu ketika, maka akan tertunduklh sgala nafsu, demi takutnya manusia terhadap Illahi.. dan aku bukan ustaz mahupun ahli agama, untuk membicarakn soal islam, mahupun iman.. tapi cukup pada aku, jika 100 tahun kemudian, aku masih mampu berkongsi rezeki aku bersama mereka yang memerlukan.. walaupun sedikit, akan aku beri..

lantas, ade yang terfikir, 'dah tu, manusia kan mang wat silap, so leklah, memang kekadang iman kite akan roboh.. so btolkan la balik nanti..'

malu aku pada mereka.. bukan kerna aku rase mereka jahil.. tapi aku sendiri yang terasa diriku begitu jahil.. saat sang pencipta memberi aku keimanan, rezeki, hidayah dan petunjuk untuk aku lalui liku2 hidup, saat itu aku lalai.. bnyk perkara jahat yang aku lakukan, walaupun kdgkala aku menangis sendirian, ketika saat sejadah dibentang di atas tanah..

hari demi hari, aku cuba perbaiki apa yang tlah aku lakukan.. trmasuklah cuba memelihara maruah keluarga, dan juga mereka yang telah ku cemar.. namun, tak semuanya mengikut apa yang dihajati.. masih terdapat mereka yg menyangka, sayang nya aku pada mereka kerna kisah lampau atau aku cuba menutup kejahilan ku sendiri.. ingin aku kata mereka salah.. tapi memang aku x mampu.. hakikatnya, aku mahu memelihara kmbali maruah mereka yang aku cemar..

mungkin memohon maaf sudah memadai.. lebih-lebih lagi, jika mereka memaafkn kita.. namun perkara yang kerap ku tangiskan ketika di atas sejadah, adakah Sang Pencipta mengampunkan kesalahanku? lalu ada di antara mereka berkata, 'Allah Maha Pengampun'.. aku tunduk dan begitu malu.. kerna setiap kali aku memohon keampunan, imanku akan kembali tercalar di masa hadapan..

hidup aku kini kosong.. ternyata senyuman yang kadangkala terlempar di luar, x sama dengan keperitan di dalam.. aku cuma mampu mengharap hidayah dari Allah, agar diberikan aku kekuatan dan keimanan.. walaupun lebih 100 tahun aku menangis, aku tidak kisah.. JIKA tangisan itu berlaku ketika, saatnya terbentang sejadah di atas tanah..

Semoga Allah memberikan aku kekuatan, untuk aku berada bersama di sisi mereka yang tersayang.. dan semoga orang2 sekeliling ku, menghargai dan menyayangi aku, sebelum aku pergi menghadap Allah yang satu.. andai ada kesilapan aku, maaf atas segalanya.. doa dari kalian yang aku mohon, agar suatu hari nanti, jika aku bertemu sang pencipta, aku mampu berdiri di pintu syurga, sambil mengharap redha dari Yang Esa..

patient and perfection of life

Somehow i just afraid of taking those chance.. but i believe i cant hold it back.. if people said "life is a race",i'll say sorry, if i cant stand with it..i juz prefer to deal with life, patiently.. yerp.. maybe i'll miss those chance, but perfection will only born with patient.. is it? :D

so, if today i do say i like u, or maybe i luv you, its a symbolic for me to learn to be patient..(yerp, noted to my own self).. Coz doesnt mean when we spell a word, people will react as we hope for.. BUT! How long will those patient last? That is the hardest thing to answer..in fact, i dont even dare to answering that..

so dear,
that is why i put my fate in Allah.. i can only pray and hope for better..
and i wont regret of taking my chance either..
there is a time when journey tought us something..
and dear, my journey has lead me to learn something about u..

dear,
i'm sorry for every false i've made.. might b mine not suit u..
but dear, there is still a room for perfection..
it just u have to deal it with patient..
coz remember, perfection is symbolic of patient..
and for that i'll patiently wait for a moment of u,
accepting me in ur own life.. d^_^b

there will be a time, when i thot u would not be mine,
but beneath those time, there is still a portion of belief,
of those patient and perfection of life..

Tuesday, April 17

kosong-kosong :D

Segala kata cacian
yang telah engkau berikan
membuatku rasa kosong kosong
Setiap tutur diperhatikan
kau cari cara putar belitkan
kau jadikan diriku kosong kosong

Kini aku bangkit
membuktikan yang ku tak sakit
dengan segala perit yang kau berikan
Kini ku pantas berjalan
bergerak kehadapan
dan akan ku buktikan
siapa diriku yang sebenar.


I was listening to this lyric when i start writing this entry. Congrats to Najwa Latif for creating such a wonderful and meaningful song. Yeah after all media hype she has faced.

Anyway, today entry will be based on those lyric (some part of it, MAYBE :D ).

Alhamdulillah as to-day, i already achieved one of my lifetime goal. own a house. Thanks to Allah for all the blessing and guidance. Finally i already bought my own 3 room condominium (yerp 90% of those money is loaned from bank! thanks Mr and Mrs Bankers.. :D )


InsyaAllah, my next goal is to have my OWN car (not the one being bought by our parents k ;) ). i'm still working for it.. As early as end of this year or might be next year.. and MAY be, i'll ready to getting married 6 month after that.. (mood gatal nampaknye ;p ) But that will be my plan. Achieve or Not? = Let Allah Decide. My job is to work harder, and seek blessing from Allah for every step that i made.

END :)
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Dear my lovely wife,
As i write it today, you might read it in future.
And listen dear, today i learned a lesson.
A lesson that teach me, that i must love every inch of person who loved me.
Because it was you, my destiny,
who given by Allah, to be with me in hard or good time.

I already lend my ribs,
and today i bought for you and our kids a place to stay,
and i'll continue working now to own a safety ride,
to cater our family in days and night.

Dear,
As today i learned,
People will only judge you by how you look,
and they often miss a moment,
to look at person who cared about them a lot.
And things become worse,
when you know, you only act as a place,
to shared their sadness, but not happiness.

Dear,
that is why i'm writing this for you.
I hope you realize how grateful i'm to meet someone like you.
Before it was too late,
I thank you for every trust you have give.
And more importantly, thanks for being with me,
from the moment we met,
from the moment i raised from nobody to becoming somebody to you,
from the moment those ijab and qabul is voice out,
and,
from the moment i made a promise with Allah to take care of you.

Dear, please..
remind me if i tend to forget what has been written here.
I just human that tend to make a mistake.

Dear,
in Allah i trust, for every destiny and path that i should take.
Help me to be a better khalifah,
so i can help to bring my parents, ur parents, urself and our kids,
to Jannah that has been promised by Allah SWT..

END, AGAIN ;)
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Thursday, April 12

thanks aunt and uncle

i went to met my aunt yesterday. its been a while i did not met her. and since i just arrived from umrah, my family decide to went there.

We had a chat and laugh. well we all enjoyed our time there. Suddenly, my aunt come to me and ask me 1 big question that act interest me at that moment.

Aunt : "GF cemana? sehat? bila nak tunjuk enggal (name dat being used to call my aunt)"
Me : "xda lagi la enggal.. so cemana nak tunjuk.. hehe"
Aunt : "aish, susah sangat ke nak cari? lame benor x jumpe2.. last yang kami sume jumpe time open house rumah kamu la kan?"
Me : juz senyum.. :)
Aunt : "kenapa x cari lagi?"
Me :"erm, ntahla, mungkin x jumpe lagi kot.. susah kan nak cari yang betol2 pandang bukan atas apa yang family kite ade"
Aunt : "betol tu, takpe enggal doakan yang terbaik buat kamu k.."
Me : "hehe.. maseh enggal"

why i said dat question interest me a lot. Back then when i'm in mecca, i met uncle hashim and haji (i just call him by that)..

Uncle hashim : berape umur ko skarang?
me : 24
Uncle Hashim : nanti nak kawen ajak la acik k..
me : hehe.. insyaAllah.. kalau ade rezeki.. so far xde sape lagi, so xdpat la nak jemput dulu.. hehe
Uncle Hashim : haish, keje dah elok.. takkan xde lagi kot.
Haji : ala, hashim ade anak perempuan, pakcik pun ade.. so boleh la kot..
me -> seriyes malu!
Uncle Hashim : pandai la ko haji.. anak aku tu baru form 1.. papepun azmi, ni pakcik nak pesan. Remember, the most beautiful women is ur girlfriend and the most ugliest is ur wife. Why i said that, sebelum kahwin, bukan main.. lepas kahwin, itu tak kene, ini tak kene.. sebelum kahwin slim, lepas kahwin slim river.. haha..

He continued

Uncle Hashim : but bila kita sayang bukan sebab cantik, kurus, gemok, haaa.. itu yang buat sayang tu kekal lama.. so ingat pesan pakcik k..
Haji : azmi, kamu x da sapa lagi kan?
me : yerp x da lagi haji.
Haji : percaya la cakap pakcik. masin mulut pakcik, balik ni, dalam masa terdekat sure kamu akan ada someone.
Uncle Hashim : haa.. btol tu..
me : InsyaAllah.. mohon doa..
Haji and Uncle Hashim : Amin..

Hurm, same topic discuss in different situation. But i just glad, they pray for me as well. May Allah bless all of them.. :)

Dear Allah,
if my prayers to met someone will lead me being far from u,
i'll be glad if u not granted too.
Coz at the end of the day,
your blessing that i seek,
love and rahmat that i need,
and those iman that i wish.
I believe in your lead, and i'm very please to thank you for everything..

anyway sorry for my grammar k.. still learn how to write better.. :D

Friday, February 10

Be Mine by Tasha Manshahar

I just love 1:29 till end.. d^_^b

Monday, February 6

silence

its been a couple of times in a week that i dreaming bout you.. i'm not sure bout what has happen in truth, but might be it just a bad sign that only reside in my dreams either..

there is a time when i sat alone and cry.. but its better to remain silence..
there is a time when i enjoy and loud.. but its better to remain silence..
there is a time when i miss you a lot.. but its better to remain silence..
there is a time when i really need you.. but its better to remain silence..
there is a time when i really hope for you.. but again, better for me to keep silence..


some quote say, silence is golden (yerp we will see that in our school canteen :D )
but sometimes silence can kill..

there is a time when i need someone to break my silence but, i'm too afraid, that i'm being apart from Allah if i follow my intuition..
As times goes by, i learn to be better.. there is no point for me for hoping as much as sky high if others side remain silence..
Although there is a time where i miss those tears, madness, angry, laugh.. i will remain silence..

i will let it kill my soul, thus i can learn how to speak with Allah better.. i love my religious, as i love my future wife is someone who can teach me about Islam better..

One day, when people say how painful u are when u broke up? i will say "hey, keep it silence for a year, then you know how painful i'm.."

as i wrote this, i'm praying that Allah put me with people that put his/her love to Allah, thus i can build up my iman and go further..

Sunday, January 8

gugur kesemua 2011

Hari ni hari meluruskan rambut yang sudah kembali curly, setelah sekian lama tidak di rebonding.. heh! :p


pergi ke saloon yang baru.. masuk.. "i nak luruskan rambut"
"boleh2.. u duduk sini.."
aktiviti meluruskan rambut selama satu jam bermula..
"ok sudah lurus.. i ingat, mau shave sikit itu tepi, boleh ar?"
"ok.. tapi takmo pendek sangat ar.."
aktivit shave bermula.... lepas aktivti shave dan menggunting selama 30 minit..
"aiya, banyak pendek maa.. u cakap mau shave sikit saja.. aiyo.. buruk oo.."
"takpa, i buat bentuk maa.. bagi style.. u check bahagian belakang"

ok.. nice shape.. but still atas panjang, rebonding lagi.. tetibe, tepi sume ilang.. ade bentuk 'V' kat belakang kepala.. so nak jadikan cerita, rambut tu jadi macam style tempurung sket.. cume tak belah tengah.. tapi disikat kebelakang..

mood ketika tu = sedey.. sebab = burok benor jadinye.. sob2!

bayar duit, beredar dari saloon tu..

dalam kereta, terpikir sekejap.. "tak boleh jadi ni, memang kene pendekkan balik sume ni.. haish.. lame tu nak jaga rambut2 ni.. hilang macam tu je dalam satu hari.."

terus memecut kereta ke saloon yang biasa aku pegi..
"bos, i mau u trim i punya rambut.. sudah rosak maa"
"haiya, apa sudah jadi sama u punya rambut?"(sambil tergelak tengok rambut aku)
"itu tadi orang sudah salah potong la.. apa macam? boleh buat?"
"sekejap aa.. i tengok dulu.. hurm, i boleh bikin balik, tapi nanti jadi sangat pendek.. u tara sayang ka? sudah lama oo u simpan, i ingat dari awal tahun dulu.."
"tara apa la bos.. pendek pun pendek la, dari jadi tempurung macam ni, baik botak.. at least x pelik bile pergi opis esok"
"betol ar u mau pendek?"
"potong saja la bos"

mood memang tersangat sedeyh melihat rambut tempurung aku. but yang paling sedey bila melihat rambut yang panjang tu dipotong sedikit demi sedikit..

pelik kan? ianya hanya rambut.. dan ianya bakal panjang kembali suatu hari nanti.. kenapa perlu aku bersedih?
sebenarnya, saat rambut tu gugur satu persatu, saat tu aku teringat segala kenangan aku sepanjang 2011.. dari saat pertama kali aku meluruskan rambut selepas break-up, hinggalah malam tahun baru 2012, rambut tu dah banyak menyaksikan segala pahit dan manis yang aku tempuh.. yerp, kadang2 rambut tu jadi agak berserabut (disebabkan nature rambut aku yang kerinting) tapi rambut serabut tu yang telah membawa aku ke ambang konvokesyen, dan juga dapat kerja di TNB.. rambut serabut tu juga yang telah menyaksikan aku break-up, gagal interview, tensen dengan kerja, tensen dengan hidup, hilang arah tujuan, putus asa dengan semua sehingga pernah aku berniat untuk melupakan soal hidup.. enjoy sepuas-puasnya sehingga habis harta ibu dan ayah aku..

:) - adakah ayat di atas sungguh hyperbola? Jujur, itu adalah apa yang berlaku disebalik senyuman yang terukir dari hari ke hari..

selesai sesi memotong rambut.. taraaaaa... rambut yang sangat pendek telah lahir semula.. :) aku menjadi lebih skema.. ye, seperti aku yang dulu..
insyaAllah, walaupun aku sedeyh, walaupun ramai yang akan ketawa melihat penampilan baru aku, aku percaya, ini adalah permulaan untuk segalanya..

adakah 2012, mampu mengembalikan kejayaan aku? hanya Allah yang mengetahui.. aku hanya mampu berdoa, agar tahun ini menjadi lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya.. semoga Allah merahmati hidupku, dan menjadikan aku khalifah yang berguna di bumiNya.. amin..