Saturday, December 27


is that my title sound weird?? huhuh!! hurm. have u ever confess to sum1?? how many failure u have?? hurm2.. me?? of coz i do.. i do have failure too.. sum person that i confess are oledy luv sum1.. sum juz leave it silent.. untill for a long moment.. untill the day i feel tired of being waitng (but it is my fall to waited because she ask not to do so).. but believe me, i'm waited coz i oledy promise to his parents, i oledy told her parents about my feelings toward thier daughter.. suddenly, when we started talking back, owh crap, she already have sum1 else...

my x-gf leave me bcoz she said she doesnt want to step back her family.. she told me everytime when we hang out together, she lied to his family.. but i'm not asking her to do so.. i'm encouraging her to told her family.. i oledy meet her family, but i still dont know, why this family reason have lead me to complicated confusion.. i already try to confess her again.. but she has replied wit a sentences that i believe i'm not in her world anymore...

hurm.. sum1 oso has confessed to me about her feelings.. she like me bcoz the way i am.. but, nah.. she's too kind for me.. i dun tink i can accept her.. i oledy anggap her as my besties ever, even i'm prefer to be fren with her than be a couple.. coz i dun want to lose such a gudfren like her... i oledy lose sum1 that tend to be my bestfren for the past bcoz of this couple thing..

now, again, i confessing sum1 that older than me.. sum1 that more matured than me, in hope that she can help me to breath in this world.. n more important, hoping that she understand me, a simple guy that live in his simple world, most care about his family,protect his family from what have people done to one of his family member in past, and only understand what he want than anyone else.. yeah, she cannot give answer for my confession, she need time.. so, i'm hoping dat i'm able to wait untill that time.. smoga hati ni sentiasa teguh dan tabah dari anasir-anasir yang tak elok.. amin...

Thursday, December 4


i juz get confius wit myself, everyday, i keep thinking wat is da meaning of friend actually.. is it just a member in our life? for the moment, i have my uniten frens that i can describe as my best buddy ever.. in other hand, i also have my hometown fren,dat i knoe for almost 20 years... erm.. oso including my school fren, that most have been missing rite now.. do no where they are..

hurm people may get thinking why i said my uni fren are bestest buddy.. its not i try to bodek them becoz they know my blog.. but to tell the truth, most of my uni are able to help me in many condition, especially where i'm in trouble.. how bout my hometown fren?? hurm.. i'm still trying to understand them... why they are with me? i'm saying this bcoz, laz tyme when i'm asking them to help for a kenduri that held in my house, none of them are showed up, instead i hv told them 2 weeks b4 dat kenduri.evenmore i remind them a day b4 dat kenduri again..

but its too early to judge my hometown fren, maybe they still not realized what is frenship all about.. as tyme pass by, i would keep thinking n thinking, its that my uni fren would do like dat to me when we r separated after graduate later? its that i'm able to meet them? would me n my hometown fren be like diz for a long tyme? would i be standable alone later? hurm..

but sumetymes it is my fault that makes all my fren away from me.. i'm kind of 'direct sound' when i think there is sumthing not nice bout my fren.. but if they are understand me, i hope they r realize, i just want to help them to be a better person.. same as me, sumtymes when i get scolding or yelling or anything that people may feel distracted, i would keep them as a motivation to help me to be a better person in this world.. so, dun ffeel worry to told me bout my bad habit if u guys think i'm wrong.. i'm still learning to survive in this live..

my fren..b4 i died or maybe b4 i would be sleep for the whole tyme of my life, if u read this post, i juz wan to make an apoligize if there is any mistake or i'm hurting u guys before.. i'm just an unperfect person...

p/s sory 4 my vocab n grammar k..


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