tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53987452448536330322024-03-05T18:18:00.517-08:00the dark side of me...tatkala aku berpijak di bumi yang Maha Esa.. Hanya DIA dan aku yang mengetahui kebenaran diri aku..Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger114125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-4772005656427268382016-11-21T21:47:00.003-08:002016-11-21T21:47:44.251-08:00How i missed this blogIt has been 2 years since my last update. And, yes. I wrote because i miss this blog. All of the entry that being my diary. As this will be the place where i throw out my angerness, frustration, joy, sadness, that somehow takkan mudah aku tunjukkan pada mereka di luar. <div>
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Well, Alhamdulillah, Allah memberi aku seorang isteri yang sangat baik. Isteri yang sangat jujur dalam setiap perkara, dan menerima aku seadanya. Isteri yang padamana, bila aku tunjukkan segala entry di dalam blog ini, tidak pula dia melatah, malah mengangkat aku untuk terus bangkit menjadi lebih matang dan berjaya di masa hadapan. I love you sayang, Thank you for taking care of me, mak, mama, and our big family. Dan keluarga kami menjadi semakin besar. Walau kami masih belum menimang cahaya mata, Allah SWT memberi kami kegembiraan dengan mengembalikan keceriaan kepada keluarga besar kami. </div>
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Meninggalkan sesuatu yang pada pandangan aku, telah menjamin masa depan aku, bukanlah sesuatu yang sangat mudah. Sejujurnya aku sangat2 bersyukur dikurniakan pekerjaan di sana. Bahkan ketika ini, hampir setiap bulan aku akan melawat tempat yang aku tinggalkan demi untuk mengenang kembali segala penat lelah dan kejayaan di situ. </div>
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Alhamdulillah, Arwah ayah sempat meninggalkan kami sebuah legasi yang baik. Sejujurnya perjalanan ini banyak membuatkan aku untuk lebih istiqamah dan bersyukur di atas jalan dan dorongan yang Esa, Jika sebelum ini, aku adalah seorang pekerja, kini Allah memberi ku peluang dan ruang untuk menjadi seorang majikan. Dan kebenaran mengetahui kebenaran dunia, banyak membuka mata aku untuk memanjatkan segala kesyukuran atas segala nikmat kurniaan yang Maha Esa. Thank You Allah. Siapa sangka di usia lewat 20 an, aku telah mampu meletakkan diriku sebaris dengan mereka yang lebih tua, di dalam industri ini.</div>
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Entah kenapa, aku melihat menulis ini sebagai sesuatu yang amat membantu aku melupakan segala kedukaan. Menulis memberi aku ketenangan. Memberi aku ruang untuk meluah segala persepsi dari hati. Yeah, dengan facebook, twitter, insta, wechat, or etc, aku mampu menulis. Tapi untuk menjaga perasaan itu bukanlah mudah. Mendidik manusia memahami setiap bait bait juga amatlah sukar. Justeru, persepsi hati, mungkin adalah medium yang lebih indah. Aku bebas menulis di dunia ciptaan ku sendiri, tanpa aku risau, apa persepsi mereka di kemudian hari. </div>
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Mungkin sebab itu aku amat merindui blog ini. Dimana, permulaan aku titipkan setiap perjalanan, dan aku cuba meletakkan noktah sewaktu hari pernikahan. Moga penulisan ini tidak terhenti. Aku merindui segala perjalanan yang telah aku lalui bermula dari awal penulisan. Dan moga setiap penulisan ini, mampu memberi aku didikan untuk aku lebih matang dan berjaya nanti. </div>
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Well, terima kasih jika ada yang masih sudi singgah di dunia kecil aku. Kalian yang masih singgah, aku yakin, merupakan orang yang rapat dengan aku suatu ketika dahulu. Untuk isteri yang aku sayang, jika kau membaca entri yang aku titipkan hari ini, mohon maaf kerana tak beritahu di masa hadapan, ketika kau mula membaca kembali, setiap perkataan yang aku bicarakan. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-60543500413432786712014-02-07T11:12:00.002-08:002014-02-07T11:12:48.859-08:00My future zaujAssalamualaikum..<br />
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Alhamdulillah, jam ketika ini sekitar hampir 3 pagi.. Hanya beberapa jam lagi aku akan menamatkan zaman bujang dan bergelar seorang suami.. Looking back for the past few years, i will say, this is the climaks of this blog journey..<br />
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Sayang,<br />
Again n again thanks a lot for the love.. And inshaaAllah, i'll do my best to be your husband n father to our kids.. N soon, you will read all my blogpost.. So i just want you to knoe, this is my story.. My journey that lead me to be a better muslim.. Journey that really thought me the meaning of life..<br />
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People keep saying, "are u nervous of getting married?"<br />
N i will definitely say "NO!".. Why? Because this is one of the moment i've been waiting for.. :) thank you Allah for letting me meet my future zauj that soon going to be my zaujah.. I love her, but at the same time i will ensure that i will never forget my love to my mom, her mom, and our family as well.. I'm just too excited sayang as later, i can be ur imam in solah, and u cn be my ma'mum.. Hei, one fine day, inshaaAllah, we could have kids a.k.a Eby, that could add colours to our journey of life..<br />
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Sayang,<br />
Both of us have lost our beloved father, so lets recite al fatihah, to them.. In hope Allah will forgive their sins, and let them be with ahli syurga.. InshaaAllah..<br />
I hope, both of them are proud to have us as kid, n i'm sure they are happy to know us getting married.. Dear Asmawi & Hussain, we love u dad..<br />
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Sayang,<br />
As u read this entry in future, my hope still remain the same, may U be a good wife to me.. From now on, i will carry all of your sins, and soon, our daughter as well.. And i know it is your dream too, to be with husband that can lead u to jannah.. As we are not perfect, so lets ensure we could help each other in future.. Tegur saya kalau saya terkasar k.. :)<br />
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Dear Allah,<br />
Thank you for this journey.. Please bless my marriage and lead us to iman and taqwa.. Please forgive our sins and let us be a better muslim, now and future.. Dear Allah, i love my family more than anyone else.. And soon i will have to love much more people, as my family becomes bigger.. Please Allah, grant me with hidayah that can lead me for a better path for my journey ahead.. Let me build my iman, help me Allah to prevent from doing any sins that could lead me to jahannam.. I hope i cam be a good son to my family, a good husband to my wife, and a good father for my kids..<br />
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Sayang,<br />
Ini bakal menjadi pengakhiran persepsi-hati.. Cetusan yang kadangkala terbit dari hati, tertafsir di akal, untuk menilai perjalanan diri.. Selepas ini, sayang akan jadi my persepsi-hati.. Moga sayang faham akan perjalanan saya mencari redha Illahi.. Sayang will become my persepsi-hati soon.. As i must share everything i do with you, right? :) But please let me have my own privacy............. "In the toilet.. :P "<br />
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This is my story book for u sayang.. Happy reading, and sweet dream.. :)<br />
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"Persepsi dari hati, meruntuh sanubari, agar terbina iman, untuk mereka yang aku kasihi.. Catatan yang terkisar, untuk rujukan dan panduan, agar aku bisa terus menjadi seorang islam yang punya iman dan mampu meneruskan amal soleh.."<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-9743687018942742642013-10-04T04:14:00.002-07:002013-10-04T19:06:21.341-07:00Assalamualaikum my little diaryAssalamualaikum,<br />
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Phew it has been a while..<br />
Miracle happened today, for no reason, i suddenly remember my blog password, then able to access my blog dashboard.. so hello persepsi-hati :)<br />
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Alhamdulillah,<br />
Sayang,<br />
As i wrote today, i already 25 years old. having work in electricity industry for the past two years.<br />
Alhamdulillah, for the short period of time, i've made several achievement.<br />
Sayang, i recently received staff of the month award (big clap!), selected by company to be part of the transformation program (Big Big Clap!) in planning the company strategy, listed as 100 young emerging talent (Big Big Big Clap!). it took several determination to reach this level, but nothing will be there without Allah blessing. So, Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah.<br />
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Oh yea,<br />
I finished my MBA last month. working while studying on full time basis will not be an easy task. But i managed to do it sayang. Again, Thank You Allah, Alhamdulillah.. (any present for me?? hihi)<br />
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Sayang,<br />
if you were my destiny, inshaaAllah, we will getiing marry this coming february. And by that time, i'm pretty sure, i will show you all of this entry of my journey. I've been in a deep sink, pushing hard for a deep breath, hoping for a better life ahead. Is not easy, because i do admit, it is hard for me to forget somebody, but i'm preparing to live without it, starting new life and journey to be with you. InshaaAllah, i will make you happy, taking care of you and our kids, look after our parents, and more importantly, bring our family to Jannah. Ameen..<br />
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Sayang,<br />
Thank you for keeping your trust in me, loving me as you always do, and being there when i'm really need it. Being a perfect person for you is impossible, but dont worry, i will try to complement your imperfect part, nicely. (are you hungry while reading this entry? please go and ask me to cook something for you now.. in return, i want to skip for laundry this week :P )<br />
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My dearest family,<br />
this blog will remain secretly from you, but i hope i can un-secretly show my love to you guys everyday. will always keep you guys in my du'a, being a good son and sibling, and inshaaAllah, loving you guys till jannah. Thank you for keeping faith and give ur endless support on me.<br />
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<i>"Oh Allah the most Merciful, Please bless the family i loved and put them in your Jannah. As i might not be a good servant, but please Allah, bless my parent, forgive their sins, and if, it will take me to carry out their sin in order for them to enter your Jannah, i will love to do so. I love them because of you, and i will do my best to ensure they can enjoy their life thereafter. Thank You Allah, for listening to my du'a. Please show me the best path, to be a good servant and khalifah in this journey of life. Ameen.."</i></div>
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-13452949544468477532012-09-16T11:00:00.003-07:002012-09-16T11:00:54.644-07:00Assalamualaikum.. :)It has been ages since my last update.. is it? yeah i think so.. Eh2..<br />
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Assalamualaikum to all readers<br />
(is there any? hope so.. hehe.. if not, let me be the story teller and let my future wife to read this blog in future.. hi my future wife.. i'm now in the middle of writing something for u.. anyway, if u read this, i'm 24 during this time.. :p )<br />
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Lately my life is getting busier with work and study..<br />
Alhamdulillah, my CGPA for 1st semester is not bad at all.. considering i'm working in morning while attending class at night.. Dear, i'm able to obtain 3.25 CGPA.. its not bad at all..so please, as u read this, i hope u r smiling (and perhaps, bring some present for me.. hihi)<br />
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As for working,<br />
It has really being an enjoyable moment sayang. i do love my job and my team mates.. tho at some point there is some argument, but they really become part of my family. u know sayang, i'm the youngest in my team as the next closer to me is already 31.. hehe.. but i'm sure, somebody will take my crown as the youngest in next years or after.. :D<br />
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My Dear,<br />
As to date, many of my friend already getting married.. i'm not sure when is mine.. but at the moment. i do hope to meet u in near future.. i'll keep praying that Allah led me to the most blessing path. so i can continue growth to be a better khalifah in future.<br />
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as day passed by,i do realize also, my intention to become a businessman continuously increase. I saw many opportunity in place, but i just waiting for the right time for execution. I do love my job in TNB. but i dont want to waste my time either untuk 'makan gaji' forever. I hope by 30, i can set another benchmark in my life. Which is to own an organization. Tho it might be such a small business.. but i'm totally happy if i can own one. When i say 'organization', it is not just for the sake of name and license of the company..i do target for business continuity in long term manner. (ok sound skema enough.. sayang u might get bored with this paragraph ryte? hihi. sorry) <br />
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sayang,<br />
Day is getting closer for my bro engagement. He's getting married by next year. InsyaAllah. Same for my eldest sister as well. its all now depend on Allah faith. I'm too happy if their wish is granted by Allah.. Terutama untuk kak yati. Selepas pemergian arwah abang yus pada tahun 2008, anak-anak beliau membesar tanpa kasih sayang seorang bapa. Justeru ingin juga saya lihat anak-anak dia membesar sempurna seperti sahabat mereka yang lain.<br />
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Enough for the update sayang? hei, if u craving for more, why dont you go to me now (as u read this line), and ask me to story more.. (insyaAllah, if i do remembered any stories related till this entry date, i will share with u k.. hihi )<br />
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i do love below song. Sang by Boyce Avenue - Someone like you.. in future i'm not sure whether i still love it.. (and will u able to listen to it sayang?) but for a moment, this song will continuously rang in my ear day after day..<br />
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<i>*for you that i used to confess and express my feeling earlier, big thanks for sharing your joy and sadness with me before.*</i> <br />
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haa.. sayang, you may want to ask me bout above line right? go and ask me now.. hihi..<br />
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<i>To all my friends, and readers (if any), i will like to make sincere apologize for any mistakes and sins i've made. thank you for continue to be with me and accept me as the way i'm.. i may be not perfect for you, but i really thankful for every moment u guys spend with me. If today be the last day i opened my eyes, i hope u guys can forgive me and continue to pray for my safety in thereafter. Moga Allah merahmati kita semua, dan sayangi keluarga anda k. Ingat! jangan lebihkan sayang kita terhadap orang lain lebih dari kita menyayangi Allah, Rasul, dan Keluarga kita sendiri.. InsyaAllah, moga Allah sentiasa membuka jalan untuk kita supaya terus istiqamah menjadi khalifah di bumi Allah.. amin.. </i>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-81329348995395583032012-05-17T06:26:00.001-07:002012-05-17T06:30:22.872-07:00Alhamdulillah<br />
Bismillah hirrahman nirrahim,<br />
Assalamualaikum,<br />
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Jarang sekali aku buka lembaran blog ni dengan bismillah dan salam..<br />
InsyaAllah, jika tidak pada kata, moga ia wujud pada hati..<br />
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Alhamdulillah..<br />
Kenapa?<br />
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Dear,<br />
today i realize a lot of things.. and as to date i totally glad with Allah.. on what Allah has gave me..<br />
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Dear,<br />
today i went for an interview with Accenture. You know what my Senior Manager and Manager said?<br />
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Manager : "Ku, ensure you do your best for that.. but are u really want that job?"<br />
Me : "its not bout the job.. i just seek for experience to develop my soft skill.. got or not is 2nd thing sir.<br />
Manager : "Alhamdulillah. May Allah give the best for you.. How was ur Master?"<br />
Me : "doing great sir. i'm enjoyed that :) "<br />
Manager : "Are you planning to quit?"<br />
Me : "not in near future sir.."<br />
Manager : "If could, please stay with us.. U already part of our family.. seriously, we lost our one feet without you.. you have help us a lot"<br />
Me : smile.. "well sir.. thanks for that.. never expect those word"<br />
Manager : "Just do your best for today k"<br />
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Senior Manager : "Ku, how was master?"<br />
Me : "Ok puan. Enjoyed! :D "<br />
SM : "Are u planning to quit?"<br />
Me : "not in near future for sure"<br />
SM : "If you prefer to stay, we are pleased too. you have becoming our important members and part of great team player"<br />
Me : "thanks puan.." smiled :D<br />
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Dear,<br />
Alhamdulillah, Allah has granted me a path. to be with people who appreciated me a lot.<br />
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Apart from that dear, today i already signed a doc for my housing loan. Alhamdulillah, at 24 finally i bought one for us to be used in future..<br />
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Dear,<br />
Today also i saw mom cried. She so pleased knowing, finally i bought my own house.. Neway, i'm going to sign S&P this saturday. :)<br />
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Alhamdulillah.<br />
To date, Allah has granted me with blessed and barakah. i wish i could be a good servant, khalifah, son, husband, and father. InsyaAllah will always seek blessing from Allah in everything i do..<br />
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Dear,<br />
I pray as well, i could meet you someday..<br />
Tho, i'm not sure when, but as u read this in future, i hope u r smiling.. u know dear, apart from Allah, Rasulullah, and family, i only have you and our kids to be with me. so to see u smile is a blessing..<br />
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Dear,<br />
May u be my good wife here and thereafter..<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-90136863282040902842012-04-23T06:13:00.000-07:002012-04-23T06:13:41.673-07:00JIKA tangisan itu berlaku ketika, saatnya terbentang sejadah di atas tanah..Semakin kite cube perkuatkan iman kite, smakin kuat dugaan yang mendatang.. lantas, iman yang cube dibina atas asas yang kukuh, kembali rapuh sdikit demi sdikit.. <br /><br />"wah, skarang ni dah macam ustaz dah kat fb.. post things yang berunsur agama.. "<br /><br />senyum... <br /><br />iman itu tidak dinilai pada apa yang diperkatakan, juga bukan pada apa yang dipertontonkn.. jika seseorang manusia itu tahu berapa nilai iman pada suatu ketika, maka akan tertunduklh sgala nafsu, demi takutnya manusia terhadap Illahi.. dan aku bukan ustaz mahupun ahli agama, untuk membicarakn soal islam, mahupun iman.. tapi cukup pada aku, jika 100 tahun kemudian, aku masih mampu berkongsi rezeki aku bersama mereka yang memerlukan.. walaupun sedikit, akan aku beri.. <br /><br />lantas, ade yang terfikir, 'dah tu, manusia kan mang wat silap, so leklah, memang kekadang iman kite akan roboh.. so btolkan la balik nanti..'<br /><br />malu aku pada mereka.. bukan kerna aku rase mereka jahil.. tapi aku sendiri yang terasa diriku begitu jahil.. saat sang pencipta memberi aku keimanan, rezeki, hidayah dan petunjuk untuk aku lalui liku2 hidup, saat itu aku lalai.. bnyk perkara jahat yang aku lakukan, walaupun kdgkala aku menangis sendirian, ketika saat sejadah dibentang di atas tanah..<br /><br />hari demi hari, aku cuba perbaiki apa yang tlah aku lakukan.. trmasuklah cuba memelihara maruah keluarga, dan juga mereka yang telah ku cemar.. namun, tak semuanya mengikut apa yang dihajati.. masih terdapat mereka yg menyangka, sayang nya aku pada mereka kerna kisah lampau atau aku cuba menutup kejahilan ku sendiri.. ingin aku kata mereka salah.. tapi memang aku x mampu.. hakikatnya, aku mahu memelihara kmbali maruah mereka yang aku cemar..<br /><br />mungkin memohon maaf sudah memadai.. lebih-lebih lagi, jika mereka memaafkn kita.. namun perkara yang kerap ku tangiskan ketika di atas sejadah, adakah Sang Pencipta mengampunkan kesalahanku? lalu ada di antara mereka berkata, 'Allah Maha Pengampun'.. aku tunduk dan begitu malu.. kerna setiap kali aku memohon keampunan, imanku akan kembali tercalar di masa hadapan.. <br /><br />hidup aku kini kosong.. ternyata senyuman yang kadangkala terlempar di luar, x sama dengan keperitan di dalam.. aku cuma mampu mengharap hidayah dari Allah, agar diberikan aku kekuatan dan keimanan.. walaupun lebih 100 tahun aku menangis, aku tidak kisah.. JIKA tangisan itu berlaku ketika, saatnya terbentang sejadah di atas tanah.. <br /><br />Semoga Allah memberikan aku kekuatan, untuk aku berada bersama di sisi mereka yang tersayang.. dan semoga orang2 sekeliling ku, menghargai dan menyayangi aku, sebelum aku pergi menghadap Allah yang satu.. andai ada kesilapan aku, maaf atas segalanya.. doa dari kalian yang aku mohon, agar suatu hari nanti, jika aku bertemu sang pencipta, aku mampu berdiri di pintu syurga, sambil mengharap redha dari Yang Esa..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-24699366328949059192012-04-23T06:09:00.001-07:002012-04-23T06:09:08.556-07:00patient and perfection of lifeSomehow i just afraid of taking those chance.. but i believe i cant hold it back.. if people said "life is a race",i'll say sorry, if i cant stand with it..i juz prefer to deal with life, patiently.. yerp.. maybe i'll miss those chance, but perfection will only born with patient.. is it? :D
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so, if today i do say i like u, or maybe i luv you, its a symbolic for me to learn to be patient..(yerp, noted to my own self).. Coz doesnt mean when we spell a word, people will react as we hope for.. <b>BUT!</b> How long will those patient last? That is the hardest thing to answer..in fact, i dont even dare to answering that..
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so dear,<br>
that is why i put my fate in Allah.. i can only pray and hope for better..<br>
and i wont regret of taking my chance either..<br>
there is a time when journey tought us something..<br>
and dear, my journey has lead me to learn something about u..
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dear,<br>
i'm sorry for every false i've made.. might b mine not suit u..<br>
but dear, there is still a room for perfection..<br>
it just u have to deal it with patient..<br>
coz remember, perfection is symbolic of patient..<br>
and for that i'll patiently wait for a moment of u,<br>
accepting me in ur own life.. d^_^b
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there will be a time, when i thot u would not be mine,<br>
but beneath those time, there is still a portion of belief,<br>
of those patient and perfection of life..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-74327899952976022192012-04-17T05:14:00.003-07:002012-04-17T06:07:55.905-07:00kosong-kosong :D<span style="font-style:italic;">Segala kata cacian <br />yang telah engkau berikan<br />membuatku rasa kosong kosong<br />Setiap tutur diperhatikan<br />kau cari cara putar belitkan<br />kau jadikan diriku kosong kosong<br /><br />Kini aku bangkit <br />membuktikan yang ku tak sakit<br />dengan segala perit yang kau berikan<br />Kini ku pantas berjalan <br />bergerak kehadapan<br />dan akan ku buktikan <br />siapa diriku yang sebenar. <br /></span><br /><br />I was listening to this lyric when i start writing this entry. Congrats to Najwa Latif for creating such a wonderful and meaningful song. Yeah after all media hype she has faced. <br /><br />Anyway, today entry will be based on those lyric (some part of it, MAYBE :D ). <br /><br />Alhamdulillah as to-day, i already achieved one of my lifetime goal. own a house. Thanks to Allah for all the blessing and guidance. Finally i already bought my own 3 room condominium (yerp 90% of those money is loaned from bank! thanks Mr and Mrs Bankers.. :D ) <br /><br /><br />InsyaAllah, my next goal is to have my OWN car (not the one being bought by our parents k ;) ). i'm still working for it.. As early as end of this year or might be next year.. and MAY be, i'll ready to getting married 6 month after that.. (mood gatal nampaknye ;p ) But that will be my plan. Achieve or Not? = Let Allah Decide. My job is to work harder, and seek blessing from Allah for every step that i made.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">END :)</span></span><br />------------------------------------------------<br /><br />Dear my lovely wife,<br />As i write it today, you might read it in future. <br />And listen dear, today i learned a lesson.<br />A lesson that teach me, that i must love every inch of person who loved me. <br />Because it was you, my destiny, <br />who given by Allah, to be with me in hard or good time.<br /><br />I already lend my ribs,<br />and today i bought for you and our kids a place to stay, <br />and i'll continue working now to own a safety ride,<br />to cater our family in days and night.<br /><br />Dear,<br />As today i learned,<br />People will only judge you by how you look,<br />and they often miss a moment, <br />to look at person who cared about them a lot.<br />And things become worse,<br />when you know, you only act as a place, <br />to shared their sadness, but not happiness. <br /><br />Dear, <br />that is why i'm writing this for you. <br />I hope you realize how grateful i'm to meet someone like you.<br />Before it was too late,<br />I thank you for every trust you have give.<br />And more importantly, thanks for being with me,<br />from the moment we met,<br />from the moment i raised from nobody to becoming somebody to you,<br />from the moment those ijab and qabul is voice out,<br />and,<br />from the moment i made a promise with Allah to take care of you.<br /><br />Dear, please.. <br />remind me if i tend to forget what has been written here.<br />I just human that tend to make a mistake. <br /><br />Dear, <br />in Allah i trust, for every destiny and path that i should take. <br />Help me to be a better khalifah,<br />so i can help to bring my parents, ur parents, urself and our kids,<br />to Jannah that has been promised by Allah SWT..<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">END, AGAIN ;)</span></span><br />------------------------------------------------Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-18688658980524961882012-04-12T10:24:00.007-07:002012-04-12T11:20:32.420-07:00thanks aunt and unclei went to met my aunt yesterday. its been a while i did not met her. and since i just arrived from umrah, my family decide to went there. <br /><br />We had a chat and laugh. well we all enjoyed our time there. Suddenly, my aunt come to me and ask me 1 big question that act interest me at that moment.<br /><br />Aunt : "GF cemana? sehat? bila nak tunjuk enggal (name dat being used to call my aunt)"<br />Me : "xda lagi la enggal.. so cemana nak tunjuk.. hehe"<br />Aunt : "aish, susah sangat ke nak cari? lame benor x jumpe2.. last yang kami sume jumpe time open house rumah kamu la kan?"<br />Me : juz senyum.. :) <br />Aunt : "kenapa x cari lagi?"<br />Me :"erm, ntahla, mungkin x jumpe lagi kot.. susah kan nak cari yang betol2 pandang bukan atas apa yang family kite ade" <br />Aunt : "betol tu, takpe enggal doakan yang terbaik buat kamu k.."<br />Me : "hehe.. maseh enggal" <br /><br />why i said dat question interest me a lot. Back then when i'm in mecca, i met uncle hashim and haji (i just call him by that).. <br /><br />Uncle hashim : berape umur ko skarang? <br />me : 24<br />Uncle Hashim : nanti nak kawen ajak la acik k.. <br />me : hehe.. insyaAllah.. kalau ade rezeki.. so far xde sape lagi, so xdpat la nak jemput dulu.. hehe<br />Uncle Hashim : haish, keje dah elok.. takkan xde lagi kot. <br />Haji : ala, hashim ade anak perempuan, pakcik pun ade.. so boleh la kot.. <br />me -> seriyes malu! <br />Uncle Hashim : pandai la ko haji.. anak aku tu baru form 1.. papepun azmi, ni pakcik nak pesan. Remember, the most beautiful women is ur girlfriend and the most ugliest is ur wife. Why i said that, sebelum kahwin, bukan main.. lepas kahwin, itu tak kene, ini tak kene.. sebelum kahwin slim, lepas kahwin slim river.. haha.. <br /><br />He continued <br /><br />Uncle Hashim : but bila kita sayang bukan sebab cantik, kurus, gemok, haaa.. itu yang buat sayang tu kekal lama.. so ingat pesan pakcik k..<br />Haji : azmi, kamu x da sapa lagi kan?<br />me : yerp x da lagi haji.<br />Haji : percaya la cakap pakcik. masin mulut pakcik, balik ni, dalam masa terdekat sure kamu akan ada someone.<br />Uncle Hashim : haa.. btol tu.. <br />me : InsyaAllah.. mohon doa.. <br />Haji and Uncle Hashim : Amin.. <br /><br />Hurm, same topic discuss in different situation. But i just glad, they pray for me as well. May Allah bless all of them.. :) <br /><br />Dear Allah,<br />if my prayers to met someone will lead me being far from u,<br />i'll be glad if u not granted too.<br />Coz at the end of the day, <br />your blessing that i seek,<br />love and rahmat that i need, <br />and those iman that i wish.<br />I believe in your lead, and i'm very please to thank you for everything.. <br /><br />anyway sorry for my grammar k.. still learn how to write better.. :DUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-88511659430273311402012-02-10T04:07:00.000-08:002012-02-10T04:09:21.288-08:00Be Mine by Tasha ManshaharI just love 1:29 till end.. d^_^b<br /><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/9OAX0G67wq8" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-47741057659703606542012-02-06T20:05:00.000-08:002012-02-06T20:19:44.696-08:00silenceits been a couple of times in a week that i dreaming bout you.. i'm not sure bout what has happen in truth, but might be it just a bad sign that only reside in my dreams either.. <br /><br />there is a time when i sat alone and cry.. but its better to remain silence.. <br />there is a time when i enjoy and loud.. but its better to remain silence.. <br />there is a time when i miss you a lot.. but its better to remain silence..<br />there is a time when i really need you.. but its better to remain silence..<br />there is a time when i really hope for you.. but again, better for me to keep silence..<br /><br /><br />some quote say, silence is golden (yerp we will see that in our school canteen :D )<br />but sometimes silence can kill.. <br /><br />there is a time when i need someone to break my silence but, i'm too afraid, that i'm being apart from Allah if i follow my intuition.. <br />As times goes by, i learn to be better.. there is no point for me for hoping as much as sky high if others side remain silence..<br />Although there is a time where i miss those tears, madness, angry, laugh.. i will remain silence.. <br /><br />i will let it kill my soul, thus i can learn how to speak with Allah better.. i love my religious, as i love my future wife is someone who can teach me about Islam better.. <br /><br />One day, when people say how painful u are when u broke up? i will say "hey, keep it silence for a year, then you know how painful i'm.."<br /><br />as i wrote this, i'm praying that Allah put me with people that put his/her love to Allah, thus i can build up my iman and go further..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-25085015142290699152012-01-08T03:41:00.001-08:002012-01-08T04:03:50.021-08:00gugur kesemua 2011Hari ni hari meluruskan rambut yang sudah kembali curly, setelah sekian lama tidak di rebonding.. heh! :p<br /><br /><br />pergi ke saloon yang baru.. masuk.. "i nak luruskan rambut"<br />"boleh2.. u duduk sini.."<br />aktiviti meluruskan rambut selama satu jam bermula..<br />"ok sudah lurus.. i ingat, mau shave sikit itu tepi, boleh ar?"<br />"ok.. tapi takmo pendek sangat ar.."<br />aktivit shave bermula.... lepas aktivti shave dan menggunting selama 30 minit..<br />"aiya, banyak pendek maa.. u cakap mau shave sikit saja.. aiyo.. buruk oo.."<br />"takpa, i buat bentuk maa.. bagi style.. u check bahagian belakang"<br /><br />ok.. nice shape.. but still atas panjang, rebonding lagi.. tetibe, tepi sume ilang.. ade bentuk 'V' kat belakang kepala.. so nak jadikan cerita, rambut tu jadi macam style tempurung sket.. cume tak belah tengah.. tapi disikat kebelakang.. <br /><br />mood ketika tu = sedey.. sebab = burok benor jadinye.. sob2!<br /><br />bayar duit, beredar dari saloon tu.. <br /><br />dalam kereta, terpikir sekejap.. "tak boleh jadi ni, memang kene pendekkan balik sume ni.. haish.. lame tu nak jaga rambut2 ni.. hilang macam tu je dalam satu hari.."<br /><br />terus memecut kereta ke saloon yang biasa aku pegi.. <br />"bos, i mau u trim i punya rambut.. sudah rosak maa"<br />"haiya, apa sudah jadi sama u punya rambut?"(sambil tergelak tengok rambut aku)<br />"itu tadi orang sudah salah potong la.. apa macam? boleh buat?"<br />"sekejap aa.. i tengok dulu.. hurm, i boleh bikin balik, tapi nanti jadi sangat pendek.. u tara sayang ka? sudah lama oo u simpan, i ingat dari awal tahun dulu.." <br />"tara apa la bos.. pendek pun pendek la, dari jadi tempurung macam ni, baik botak.. at least x pelik bile pergi opis esok"<br />"betol ar u mau pendek?"<br />"potong saja la bos"<br /><br />mood memang tersangat sedeyh melihat rambut tempurung aku. but yang paling sedey bila melihat rambut yang panjang tu dipotong sedikit demi sedikit.. <br /><br />pelik kan? ianya hanya rambut.. dan ianya bakal panjang kembali suatu hari nanti.. kenapa perlu aku bersedih? <br />sebenarnya, saat rambut tu gugur satu persatu, saat tu aku teringat segala kenangan aku sepanjang 2011.. dari saat pertama kali aku meluruskan rambut selepas break-up, hinggalah malam tahun baru 2012, rambut tu dah banyak menyaksikan segala pahit dan manis yang aku tempuh.. yerp, kadang2 rambut tu jadi agak berserabut (disebabkan nature rambut aku yang kerinting) tapi rambut serabut tu yang telah membawa aku ke ambang konvokesyen, dan juga dapat kerja di TNB.. rambut serabut tu juga yang telah menyaksikan aku break-up, gagal interview, tensen dengan kerja, tensen dengan hidup, hilang arah tujuan, putus asa dengan semua sehingga pernah aku berniat untuk melupakan soal hidup.. enjoy sepuas-puasnya sehingga habis harta ibu dan ayah aku.. <br /><br />:) - adakah ayat di atas sungguh hyperbola? Jujur, itu adalah apa yang berlaku disebalik senyuman yang terukir dari hari ke hari.. <br /><br />selesai sesi memotong rambut.. taraaaaa... rambut yang sangat pendek telah lahir semula.. :) aku menjadi lebih skema.. ye, seperti aku yang dulu.. <br />insyaAllah, walaupun aku sedeyh, walaupun ramai yang akan ketawa melihat penampilan baru aku, aku percaya, ini adalah permulaan untuk segalanya.. <br /><br />adakah 2012, mampu mengembalikan kejayaan aku? hanya Allah yang mengetahui.. aku hanya mampu berdoa, agar tahun ini menjadi lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya.. semoga Allah merahmati hidupku, dan menjadikan aku khalifah yang berguna di bumiNya.. amin..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-25717864570326494112011-12-16T05:00:00.000-08:002011-12-16T05:07:08.660-08:00youhurm, somehow i'm not sure whether u still following my blog or not.. <br />but if you did, i just want to say, 'this song is for you.. May Allah bless n grant u hepyness that u r looking for.. Ei, hepy2 with ziri k.. hehe..' d^_^b<br /><br /><iframe width="459" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/y68_sNvD4MA?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-19328778015575046692011-12-12T05:42:00.000-08:002011-12-12T05:45:49.980-08:00for salei came across this picture while googling something..<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjm3Hyj_4ZTOl-TxVpXj2_IYhWZfD9L92kX0Zi55TwNEtlQoIpohyphenhyphengIAYpRBt5tduaGpiCuyU5ahoevDNKAEBJbtEGoGL__C3w4i9TRvjsL29oBnPQsZjxLi_lAR_4YgvKXUqwHqVl3fpQ/s1600/270491_10150359017073438_599528437_10065122_2757381_n.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjm3Hyj_4ZTOl-TxVpXj2_IYhWZfD9L92kX0Zi55TwNEtlQoIpohyphenhyphengIAYpRBt5tduaGpiCuyU5ahoevDNKAEBJbtEGoGL__C3w4i9TRvjsL29oBnPQsZjxLi_lAR_4YgvKXUqwHqVl3fpQ/s320/270491_10150359017073438_599528437_10065122_2757381_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5685237107731514930" /></a><br /><br />can someone make it for sale, just for me? <br />or will u buy it from me if i sell it? <br /><br />d^_^bUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-81769706432574138732011-12-10T10:35:00.000-08:002011-12-10T11:01:28.087-08:00entri untuk 'dia'dalam hidup ni, aku menghadapi satu masalah, dimana soal pendirian dan keputusan yang sering kali berubah.<br /><br />aku cuba mencari identiti,yang nampaknya masih hambar ketika ini. Tatkala aku berjalan di bumi Yang Esa, aku sering mengharapkan agar wujud belas dan ihsan dariNya, agar aku mampu berada di laluan yang betul.<br /><br />Alhamdulillah, setelah lebih setahun berlalu, aku berupaya untuk melupakan sedikit demi sedikit. walaupun memang aku akui, ianya tersangatlah susah. InsyaAllah,semoga Allah membantu.<br /><br />dan bila dibuka balik entri2 yang lama dalam blog ni, sekali sekala terpalit senyuman akan segala suka duka yang aku dah hadapi.. dalam perjalanan menjadikan aku lebih matang.. adekah aku semakin matang hari ini? mungkin.. jika dibandingkan dengan semalam.. :D<br /><br />dan walaupun entri di dalam blog ni, tidaklah sebanyak dan sehebat entri blogger yang lain, aku harap, suatu hari nanti, aku mampu tunjukkan kepada 'dia' yang halal buatku.. <br /><br />"sayang, ini adalah perjalanan hidup saya. Saya harap, sayang mengetahui bahwa saya tidak mengalami perjalanan yang sangat mudah sebelum saya menjadikan awak yang halal buat saya.. Setiap ayat yang saya catatkan adalah ikhlas dari persepsi hati saya.. ini adalah diari saya, ini adalah perjalanan hidup saya.."<br /><br />"dan jika sayang terbaca entri ini pada masa hadapan, ketahuilah akan janji saya untuk awak. Hari ini saya berjanji untuk menjadikan saya diantara yang terbaik dalam hidup awak, dan jikalau satu hari nanti saya berkasar, lupa tanggungjawab, tidak membawa awak ke jalan yang diredhai Allah, maka ingatkanlah saya berkenaan entri ini.. agar saya kembali sedar, bahawa hari ini saya telah berjanji untuk menjaga kamu sebaik mungkin.."<br /> <br />-----------------------------------------------------------------<br /><br />ok, adakah aku telah mengalami mood jiwang? hehe.. :D = tidak.. <br />ini adalah entri untuk aku berjanji dengan diri aku, bagi kehidupan aku di masa hadapan kelak..<br /><br />adakah aku sudah mempunyai 'dia'? = tidak.. <br />aku catitkan hari ini, agar bila sampai waktunya kelak, 'dia' akan menyedari bahwa perjalanan ku mencari dan mengenal 'dia', bukannya bermula pada saat aku berjumpa dengannya..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-25660203501871752642011-12-04T07:07:00.000-08:002011-12-04T07:17:12.808-08:00if u ask me. how do i feel ryte now..if u ask me, how do i feel ryte now? of course i were disappointed with what has happened before.. and i personally think, the song from hoobastank below, will help to describe more.. <br /><br /><iframe width="459" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/23k-9LO8Tx0?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe><br /><br />So, will u ask me again how do i feel ryte now? :) <br /><br />p/s - i'm not hoobastank fan, but i admire some of their song.. its a quite disappointment they are not actively involve in music nowadays..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-45182704494613376232011-12-02T04:25:00.000-08:002011-12-02T04:29:05.530-08:00AlhamdulillahAlhamdulillah..<br /><br />Itu satu ungkapan yang mampu aku ucapkan setelah aku melihat penghijrahan yang telah engkau lakukan.. Yerp, aku bukan yang terbaik dalam hidup kamu.. kerna aku x mampu untuk merubah kamu menjadi lebih baik.. InsyaAllah, semoga perubahan kamu kekal.. dan aku sangat suka dengan perubahan kamu yang begini.. sebab, tiada apa yang menggembirakan aku melainkan melihat engkau bergembira dengan dirimu sendiri.. <br /><br />sekali lagi, alhamdulillah Ya Rabb.. semoga engkau memperkasakan imanku, agar imanku sentiasa teguh di jalan yang sentiasa diredhaiMu.. InsyaAllah..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-56882143385056829212011-11-06T00:45:00.001-07:002011-11-06T01:32:35.388-07:00buat si pencinta husnul khotimahKalau aku mampu memiliki apa yang ingin aku miliki, nescaya mudah untuk aku lupa pada Allah yang Esa. Justeru, aku akur akan segala qada' dan qadar. tentang segala suratan, dan juga segala keputusan. Allah telahpun merancang sesuatu yang terbaik, istiqamah dalam hati, agar hidup akan sentiasa dilandasan Illahi. <br /> <br /><span style="font-style:italic;">"Jodoh itu bisa dicari. tetapi mengapa tidak dicari pada tempatnya? Misalan, jika kita berjalan-jalan di sekitar bandar, mampukah kita menjumpai permata, berlian, atau emas yang sangat bernilai di kaki-kaki lima, mahupun di bahu jalan? (ya, mungkin ada.. tapi kekerapannya?) kebanyakan adalah sampah2 buangan, debu, habuk, etc.. Manakala, benda yang bernilai seperti permata hanya dapat kita cari di pusat beli belah eklusif, yang disimpan di dalam bekas kaca, serta dikawal oleh pengawal bersenjata.Sukar bukan untuk kita memiliki permata tersebut? Jika kita benar2 mampu dan berusaha, maka kita akan memilikinya. Andai kata perumpamaan sampah dan permata ini diumpamakan seperti soal jodoh, maka anak akan mengerti apa yang dimaksudkan.."<br /></span><br /><br />Itu adalah ungkapan yang terpacul dari mulut seorang pendakwah yang membuatkan aku tertanya-tanya, seterusnya menyedarkan aku dari igauan yang selama ini menghantui aku.. Dalam perjalanan hidup untuk aku mencari sesuatu yang mampu mendekatkan diriku dengan Allah, ketika itulah semangat ku dikuatkan oleh "si pencinta husnul khotimah". Semakin aku mendekati, semakin aku sedar akan apa yang diperkatakannya. Padanya, tidak ada cinta sebaik cinta terhadap Allah. Istiqamah dan Ihsan terhadap Allah dalam apa yang dilakukan.. <br /><br />Aku akui,imanku seringkali luntur, lantas nafsu serakah seringkali menghantui diriku.. Begitu juga soal hati yang x mungkin mampu aku sorokkan terhadap "si pencinta husnul khotimah". Namun adakah bermakna aku mampu memiliki orang yang bijak beragama? sedangkan aku ini jahil tentang agama tetapi bakal menjadi seorang suami dan pemimpin dalam keluarga suatu hari kelak.. Maka, disitulah terbuka hijabku berkenaan cerita sampah dan permata.. <br /><br />Agak pening juga cerita entry aku kali ni kan? x mengapa, ambil masa, ulang baca, maka akan tercetus idea yang ingin aku sampaikan. <br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">"seorang muslim itu seharusnya punya rasa cinta pda Allah dan rasul melebihi sgala2 dn harus bercita2 utk bertemu dgn Rasulullah dan malihat wjah Allah itu sdri.. itu y dkatakan halawatul iamn (kemanisn iman)... kerana redha Allah itu mahal harganya. moga mmbntu..."</span><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />"Allah y ksi idea utk sy tulis. Moga dpandu hati utk buat plihan y trbaik. jgan lupa istikharah. yup2, no one boleh influecne kte utk buat decision sbb dyornk xtaw pape pown psal kita.. tpi Allah is the one that knows what the best 4 us. . thats why apa2 pown kne berbalik pda Dia. kdang2 kte suke sthg, tpi Allah kta i2 bukan y trbaik. y pntig perlu sntiasa redha dgan apa y Allah akn tetpkn nnti. <br />put the whole trust on Him. i'Allah"<br /><br />(dari si pencinta husnul khotimah)</span><br /><br /><br />buat si pencinta husnul khotimah, terima kasih atas segala nasihat dan tunjuk ajar.. Ya Allah, semoga engkau memperkuatkan imanku, agar aku sentiasa berada di jalanMu.. Jadikanlah aku dikalangan orang-orang yang mencintaiMu agar suatu hari nanti, aku mampu bersama dengan orang yang benar-benar mencintai diriMu, agamaMu, serta RasulMu.. Jika terdapat khilaf terhadap doaku, wujud ketidak ikhlasan dalam ibadahku, maka sedarkan aku, agar aku mampu bangkit menjadi seorang khalifah yang sentiasa diredhaiMu. Terima Kasih Ya Allah, untuk segala nikmat dan kekuatan.. d^_^bUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-41807677234143002212011-09-02T16:56:00.001-07:002011-09-02T16:56:01.077-07:00khas untuk husnul khotimah..Agak sukar untuk aku mnggapai husnul khotimah, jika imanku masih lemah.. setiap pncarian harus dimulakan dgn niat yang ikhlas.. lantas niatku untuk mnjadikn engkau yang halal buatku, agar aku bisa membina iman yang kukuh agar rusuk adam yang dipinjamkan mampu mengangkat diriku jika aku hilang keseimbangan dan trsungkur di bumi yang maha Esa kelak.. aku hanya mampu berdoa ktika ini, agar engkau aku miliki.. namun jika engkau ditakdirkn untuk mereka yang lain, tidak pula akan aku ratapi.. kerna cintaku terhadapmu bukan atas dasar nafsu, tapi atas imanmu yang seringkali meruntuhkn serakahku.. <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-70221419410922572102011-08-12T15:08:00.001-07:002011-08-12T15:08:41.414-07:00to my LOLipopers..InsyaAllah, i'll b waitin for u as long as i could.. gambling myself with lots of pray and hope.. may the best covered the rest.. <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-50578277618873834612011-07-24T07:01:00.000-07:002011-07-24T07:04:35.926-07:00to whom? i'm not sureWhn i look bck at myself, i'm not sure wat i'm capable of..i luv biznes but i'm mostly being cheated by others..same goes to luv.. i'm luv to b luved, but i'm not sure whether i'm capable of handling it.. people said truth is hurt n truth might change others.. but i'm adapt wit it.. its hard for me to b wit sum1 coz i'm very direct twards wat i said..it's just my way of sincerety..wat hpen might showed dat u n me r not dserved to b with, i do no hw to treat u n u seems to b hurt by wht i said..people said take it or leave it..hurm at this moment i might leave it for bettr.. thnx for everythin n i'm very glad to b closed wit u.. it just a great feeling to hide under every1 nose, n knowing u btter thn any new frens could hv..thnx again.. <br /><br />(To whom? I'm not sure.. i just write it for my pleasure.. coz i do hope, beneath my darkness, i cn still bring smile for tomorrow)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-18666390178193489762011-07-02T20:20:00.001-07:002011-07-02T20:20:01.867-07:00i'm glad.. ;-)I'm glad Allah test u with difficultness.. so u cn measure ur self about luv, life n dignity.. sumhw its not bout who u wnt to be with, but who u shuld b with.. so luv Allah n fmily btter, b4 u luv any1 else.. <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.2</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-68639677051373504132011-06-30T07:59:00.001-07:002011-06-30T08:16:16.196-07:00sy x kesah..Sy xkesah, meskipun ianya seketika..sy tau, masih wujud aura kebencian yg kmu lmparkn thdp sy.. mgkin kmu trpaksa.. dan mgkin tidak.. tp sy xkesah.. sy sggup mnerima kmu jika kmu mmrlukn sy suatu hr nnti.. kerna sy msih sdar akn tanggungjawab, kprcayaan dan maruah kmu yg perlu sy bela.. mskipun pada kamu ianya mustahil, sy tidak kesah.. semua perancangan tlahpun direncana Allah S.W.T.. sy yakin akn stiap percaturanNya.. kerna yg baik itu adalah dri Allah S.W.T dan yang jahil itu adlh dri kita sndiri..Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-63825670676550850202011-06-27T07:30:00.001-07:002011-06-27T07:30:54.111-07:00still tryingWhen the memory keep buzzing in ur head, it is time to let the tears drain.. i'm still trying n hope for the best to come.. <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.2</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5398745244853633032.post-30426354812944242452011-06-11T11:43:00.000-07:002011-06-11T12:02:10.011-07:00muvee..just coming bck from time square.. went out wit my crazy frens, watchin 'kl gangster'.. erm, such a nice muvee for me.. worth every penny u hv spent.. <br /><br />tapi.. ntahla.. everytime i went for muvee, there wil be a strange feelin.. sumhow, in the middle of the story, there will b uncomfortable feelings crossed my self.. such a feeling that i use to miss a lot.. and i do admit, those feeling drag myself to uncomfortable situation, altho i already reached my home.. <br /><br />and then, i start triggering myself towards sumthin.. how easily people will forget things they used to luv? maybe they will said, try to accept the new and forget the past.. but in reality, we actually lying to ourself towards what we want.. isnt it? it just like people who reading my blog.. if u wont cared or u doesnt have any intention to b wit me and know bout me, u guys will never read it.. coz i never showed my blog to peoples out there.. hei2! not showed off.. i'm appreciate u guys effort to keep reading my blog.. i juz trying to show an example of it.. still luv u guys ok.. :D<br /><br />hurm.. bottomline, what i'm trying to say ryte nw is, i miss the moment with sum1 that i used to luv.. walaupun tak lame, it still mean a lot to me.. but again, life must go on ryte.. when others already make their choice and forget us, we need to start our own path.. so, i'll try to force myself again to be as strongest as i can.. may Allah guide my life towards hepyness that i'm looking for.. <br /><br />walaupun setiap kali, saye pulang dari tgk wayang, akan wujud strangers feel yang same, saye akan usaha jugak untuk lupekan sume, n brdoa kmbali, agar Allah membantu saye.. <br /><br />p/s - sorry for my grammar k.. ;)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0