Assalamualaikum my little diary

Assalamualaikum,

Phew it has been a while..
Miracle happened today, for no reason, i suddenly remember my blog password, then able to access my blog dashboard.. so hello persepsi-hati :)

Alhamdulillah,
Sayang,
As i wrote today, i already 25 years old. having work in electricity industry for the past two years.
Alhamdulillah, for the short period of time, i've made several achievement.
Sayang, i recently received staff of the month award (big clap!), selected by company to be part of the transformation program (Big Big Clap!) in planning the company strategy, listed as 100 young emerging talent (Big Big Big Clap!). it took several determination to reach this level, but nothing will be there without Allah blessing. So, Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah.

Oh yea,
I finished my MBA last month. working while studying on full time basis will not be an easy task. But i managed to do it sayang. Again, Thank You Allah, Alhamdulillah.. (any present for me?? hihi)

Sayang,
if you were my destiny, inshaaAllah, we will getiing marry this coming february. And by that time, i'm pretty sure, i will show you all of this entry of my journey. I've been in a deep sink, pushing hard for a deep breath, hoping for a better life ahead. Is not easy, because i do admit, it is hard for me to forget somebody, but i'm preparing to live without it, starting new life and journey to be with you. InshaaAllah, i will make you happy, taking care of you and our kids, look after our parents, and more importantly, bring our family to Jannah. Ameen..

Sayang,
Thank you for keeping your trust in me, loving me as you always do, and being there when i'm really need it. Being a perfect person for you is impossible, but dont worry, i will try to complement your imperfect part, nicely. (are you hungry while reading this entry? please go and ask me to cook something for you now.. in return, i want to skip for laundry this week :P )

My dearest family,
this blog will remain secretly from you, but i hope i can un-secretly show my love to you guys everyday. will always keep you guys in my du'a, being a good son and sibling, and inshaaAllah, loving you guys till jannah. Thank you for keeping faith and give ur endless support on me.

"Oh Allah the most Merciful, Please bless the family i loved and put them in your Jannah. As i might not be a good servant, but please Allah, bless my parent, forgive their sins, and if, it will take me to carry out their sin in order for them to enter your Jannah, i will love to do so. I love them because of you, and i will do my best to ensure they can enjoy their life thereafter. Thank You Allah, for listening to my du'a. Please show me the best path, to be a good servant and khalifah in this journey of life. Ameen.."

Assalamualaikum.. :)

It has been ages since my last update.. is it? yeah i think so.. Eh2..

Assalamualaikum to all readers
(is there any? hope so.. hehe.. if not, let me be the story teller and let my future wife to read this blog in future.. hi my future wife.. i'm now in the middle of writing something for u.. anyway, if u read this, i'm 24 during this time.. :p )

Lately my life is getting busier with work and study..
Alhamdulillah, my CGPA for 1st semester is not bad at all.. considering i'm working in morning while attending class at night.. Dear,  i'm able to obtain 3.25 CGPA.. its not bad at all..so please, as u read this, i hope u r smiling (and perhaps, bring some present for me.. hihi)

As for working,
It has really being an enjoyable moment sayang. i do love my job and my team mates.. tho at some point there is  some argument, but they really become part of my family. u know sayang, i'm the youngest in my team as the next closer to me is already 31.. hehe.. but i'm sure, somebody will take my crown as the youngest in next years or after.. :D

My Dear,
As to date, many of my friend already getting married.. i'm not sure when is mine.. but at the moment. i do hope to meet u in near future.. i'll keep praying that Allah led me to the most blessing path. so i can continue growth to be a better khalifah in future.

as day passed by,i do realize also, my intention to become a businessman continuously increase. I saw many opportunity in place, but i just waiting for the right time for execution. I do love my job in TNB. but i dont want to waste my time either untuk 'makan gaji' forever. I hope by 30, i can set another benchmark in my life. Which is to own an organization. Tho it might be such a small business.. but i'm totally happy if i can own one. When i say 'organization', it is not just for the sake of name and license of the company..i do target for business continuity in long term manner. (ok sound skema enough.. sayang u might get bored with this paragraph ryte? hihi. sorry)

sayang,
Day is getting closer for my bro engagement. He's getting married by next year. InsyaAllah. Same for my eldest sister as well. its all now depend on Allah faith. I'm too happy if their wish is granted by Allah.. Terutama untuk kak yati. Selepas pemergian arwah abang yus pada tahun 2008, anak-anak beliau membesar tanpa kasih sayang seorang bapa. Justeru ingin juga saya lihat anak-anak dia membesar sempurna seperti sahabat mereka yang lain.

Enough for the update sayang? hei, if u craving for more, why dont you go to me now (as u read this line), and ask me to story more.. (insyaAllah, if i do remembered any stories related till this entry date, i will share with u k.. hihi )

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i do love below song. Sang by Boyce Avenue - Someone like you.. in future i'm not sure whether i still love it.. (and will u able to listen to it sayang?) but for a moment, this song will continuously rang in my ear day after day..


*for you that i used to confess and express my feeling earlier, big thanks for sharing your joy and sadness with me before.*  

haa.. sayang, you may want to ask me bout above line right? go and ask me now.. hihi..

To all my friends, and readers (if any), i will like to make sincere apologize for any mistakes and sins i've made. thank you for continue to be with me and accept me as the way i'm.. i may be not perfect for you, but i really thankful for every moment u guys spend with me. If today be the last day i opened my eyes, i hope u guys can forgive me and continue to pray for my safety in thereafter. Moga Allah merahmati kita semua, dan sayangi keluarga anda k. Ingat! jangan lebihkan sayang kita terhadap orang lain lebih dari kita menyayangi Allah, Rasul, dan Keluarga kita sendiri.. InsyaAllah, moga Allah sentiasa membuka jalan untuk kita supaya terus istiqamah menjadi khalifah di bumi Allah.. amin.. 

Alhamdulillah

Bismillah hirrahman nirrahim,
Assalamualaikum,

Jarang sekali aku buka lembaran blog ni dengan bismillah dan salam..
InsyaAllah, jika tidak pada kata, moga ia wujud pada hati..

Alhamdulillah..
Kenapa?

Dear,
today i realize a lot of things.. and as to date i totally glad with Allah.. on what Allah has gave me..

Dear,
today i went for an interview with Accenture. You know what my Senior Manager and Manager said?

Manager : "Ku, ensure you do your best for that.. but are u really want that job?"
Me : "its not bout the job.. i just seek for experience to develop my soft skill.. got or not is 2nd thing sir.
Manager : "Alhamdulillah. May Allah give the best for you.. How was ur Master?"
Me : "doing great sir. i'm enjoyed that :) "
Manager : "Are you planning to quit?"
Me : "not in near future sir.."
Manager : "If could, please stay with us.. U already part of our family.. seriously, we lost our one feet without you.. you have help us a lot"
Me : smile.. "well sir.. thanks for that.. never expect those word"
Manager : "Just do your best for today k"

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Senior Manager : "Ku, how was master?"
Me : "Ok puan. Enjoyed! :D "
SM : "Are u planning to quit?"
Me : "not in near future for sure"
SM : "If you prefer to stay, we are pleased too. you have becoming our important members and part of great team player"
Me : "thanks puan.." smiled :D


Dear,
Alhamdulillah, Allah has granted me a path. to be with people who appreciated me a lot.

Apart from that dear, today i already signed a doc for my housing loan. Alhamdulillah, at 24 finally i bought one for us to be used in future..

Dear,
Today also i saw mom cried. She so pleased knowing, finally i bought my own house.. Neway, i'm going to sign S&P this saturday. :)


Alhamdulillah.
To date, Allah has granted me with blessed and barakah. i wish i could be a good servant, khalifah, son, husband, and father. InsyaAllah will always seek blessing from Allah in everything i do..

Dear,
I pray as well, i could meet you someday..
Tho, i'm not sure when, but as u read this in future, i hope u r smiling.. u know dear, apart from Allah, Rasulullah, and family, i only have you and our kids to be with me. so to see u smile is a blessing..

Dear,
May u be my good wife here and thereafter..

JIKA tangisan itu berlaku ketika, saatnya terbentang sejadah di atas tanah..

Semakin kite cube perkuatkan iman kite, smakin kuat dugaan yang mendatang.. lantas, iman yang cube dibina atas asas yang kukuh, kembali rapuh sdikit demi sdikit..

"wah, skarang ni dah macam ustaz dah kat fb.. post things yang berunsur agama.. "

senyum...

iman itu tidak dinilai pada apa yang diperkatakan, juga bukan pada apa yang dipertontonkn.. jika seseorang manusia itu tahu berapa nilai iman pada suatu ketika, maka akan tertunduklh sgala nafsu, demi takutnya manusia terhadap Illahi.. dan aku bukan ustaz mahupun ahli agama, untuk membicarakn soal islam, mahupun iman.. tapi cukup pada aku, jika 100 tahun kemudian, aku masih mampu berkongsi rezeki aku bersama mereka yang memerlukan.. walaupun sedikit, akan aku beri..

lantas, ade yang terfikir, 'dah tu, manusia kan mang wat silap, so leklah, memang kekadang iman kite akan roboh.. so btolkan la balik nanti..'

malu aku pada mereka.. bukan kerna aku rase mereka jahil.. tapi aku sendiri yang terasa diriku begitu jahil.. saat sang pencipta memberi aku keimanan, rezeki, hidayah dan petunjuk untuk aku lalui liku2 hidup, saat itu aku lalai.. bnyk perkara jahat yang aku lakukan, walaupun kdgkala aku menangis sendirian, ketika saat sejadah dibentang di atas tanah..

hari demi hari, aku cuba perbaiki apa yang tlah aku lakukan.. trmasuklah cuba memelihara maruah keluarga, dan juga mereka yang telah ku cemar.. namun, tak semuanya mengikut apa yang dihajati.. masih terdapat mereka yg menyangka, sayang nya aku pada mereka kerna kisah lampau atau aku cuba menutup kejahilan ku sendiri.. ingin aku kata mereka salah.. tapi memang aku x mampu.. hakikatnya, aku mahu memelihara kmbali maruah mereka yang aku cemar..

mungkin memohon maaf sudah memadai.. lebih-lebih lagi, jika mereka memaafkn kita.. namun perkara yang kerap ku tangiskan ketika di atas sejadah, adakah Sang Pencipta mengampunkan kesalahanku? lalu ada di antara mereka berkata, 'Allah Maha Pengampun'.. aku tunduk dan begitu malu.. kerna setiap kali aku memohon keampunan, imanku akan kembali tercalar di masa hadapan..

hidup aku kini kosong.. ternyata senyuman yang kadangkala terlempar di luar, x sama dengan keperitan di dalam.. aku cuma mampu mengharap hidayah dari Allah, agar diberikan aku kekuatan dan keimanan.. walaupun lebih 100 tahun aku menangis, aku tidak kisah.. JIKA tangisan itu berlaku ketika, saatnya terbentang sejadah di atas tanah..

Semoga Allah memberikan aku kekuatan, untuk aku berada bersama di sisi mereka yang tersayang.. dan semoga orang2 sekeliling ku, menghargai dan menyayangi aku, sebelum aku pergi menghadap Allah yang satu.. andai ada kesilapan aku, maaf atas segalanya.. doa dari kalian yang aku mohon, agar suatu hari nanti, jika aku bertemu sang pencipta, aku mampu berdiri di pintu syurga, sambil mengharap redha dari Yang Esa..