Monday, November 21

How i missed this blog

It has been 2 years since my last update. And, yes. I wrote because i miss this blog. All of the entry that being my diary. As this will be the place where i throw out my angerness, frustration, joy, sadness, that somehow takkan mudah aku tunjukkan pada mereka di luar. 

Mana aku harus mula menulis? 

Family
Well, Alhamdulillah, Allah memberi aku seorang isteri yang sangat baik. Isteri yang sangat jujur dalam setiap perkara, dan menerima aku seadanya. Isteri yang padamana, bila aku tunjukkan segala entry di dalam blog ini, tidak pula dia melatah, malah mengangkat aku untuk terus bangkit menjadi lebih matang dan berjaya di masa hadapan. I love you sayang, Thank you for taking care of me, mak, mama, and our big family. Dan keluarga kami menjadi semakin besar. Walau kami masih belum menimang cahaya mata, Allah SWT memberi kami kegembiraan dengan mengembalikan keceriaan kepada keluarga besar kami. 

Kerjaya
Meninggalkan sesuatu yang pada pandangan aku, telah menjamin masa depan aku, bukanlah sesuatu yang sangat mudah. Sejujurnya aku sangat2 bersyukur dikurniakan pekerjaan di sana. Bahkan ketika ini, hampir setiap bulan aku akan melawat tempat yang aku tinggalkan demi untuk mengenang kembali segala penat lelah dan kejayaan di situ. 

Alhamdulillah, Arwah ayah sempat meninggalkan kami sebuah legasi yang baik. Sejujurnya perjalanan ini banyak membuatkan aku untuk lebih istiqamah dan bersyukur di atas jalan dan dorongan yang Esa, Jika sebelum ini, aku adalah seorang pekerja, kini Allah memberi ku peluang dan ruang untuk menjadi seorang majikan. Dan kebenaran mengetahui kebenaran dunia, banyak membuka mata aku untuk memanjatkan segala kesyukuran atas segala nikmat kurniaan yang Maha Esa. Thank You Allah. Siapa sangka di usia lewat 20 an, aku telah mampu meletakkan diriku sebaris dengan mereka yang lebih tua, di dalam industri ini.


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Entah kenapa, aku melihat menulis ini sebagai sesuatu yang amat membantu aku melupakan segala kedukaan. Menulis memberi aku ketenangan. Memberi aku ruang untuk meluah segala persepsi dari hati. Yeah, dengan facebook, twitter, insta, wechat, or etc, aku mampu menulis. Tapi untuk menjaga perasaan itu bukanlah mudah. Mendidik manusia memahami setiap bait bait juga amatlah sukar. Justeru, persepsi hati, mungkin adalah medium yang lebih indah. Aku bebas menulis di dunia ciptaan ku sendiri, tanpa aku risau, apa persepsi mereka di kemudian hari. 

Mungkin sebab itu aku amat merindui blog ini. Dimana, permulaan aku titipkan setiap perjalanan, dan aku cuba meletakkan noktah sewaktu hari pernikahan. Moga penulisan ini tidak terhenti. Aku merindui segala perjalanan yang telah aku lalui bermula dari awal penulisan. Dan moga setiap penulisan ini, mampu memberi aku didikan untuk aku lebih matang dan berjaya nanti. 

Well, terima kasih jika ada yang masih sudi singgah di dunia kecil aku. Kalian yang masih singgah, aku yakin, merupakan orang yang rapat dengan aku suatu ketika dahulu. Untuk isteri yang aku sayang, jika kau membaca entri yang aku titipkan hari ini, mohon maaf kerana tak beritahu di masa hadapan, ketika kau mula membaca kembali, setiap perkataan yang aku bicarakan. 

 


Friday, February 7

My future zauj

Assalamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah,  jam ketika ini sekitar hampir 3 pagi.. Hanya beberapa jam lagi aku akan menamatkan zaman bujang dan bergelar seorang suami.. Looking back for the past few years, i will say, this is the climaks of this blog journey..

Sayang,
Again n again thanks a lot for the love.. And inshaaAllah, i'll do my best to be your husband n father to our kids.. N soon, you will read all my blogpost.. So i just want you to knoe, this is my story.. My journey that lead me to be a better muslim.. Journey that really thought me  the meaning of life..

People keep saying, "are u nervous of getting married?"
N i will definitely say "NO!".. Why? Because this is one of the moment i've been waiting for.. :) thank you Allah for letting me meet my future zauj that soon going to be my zaujah.. I love her, but at the same time i will ensure that i will never forget my love to my mom, her mom, and our family as well.. I'm just too excited sayang as later, i can be ur imam in solah, and u cn be my ma'mum.. Hei, one fine day, inshaaAllah, we could have kids a.k.a Eby, that could add colours to our journey of life..

Sayang,
Both of us have lost our beloved father, so lets recite al fatihah, to them.. In hope Allah will forgive their sins, and let them be with ahli syurga.. InshaaAllah..
I hope, both of them are proud to have us as kid, n i'm sure they are happy to know us getting married.. Dear Asmawi & Hussain, we love u dad..

Sayang,
As u read this entry in future, my hope still remain the same, may U be a good wife to me.. From now on, i will carry all of your sins, and soon, our daughter as well.. And i know it is your dream too, to be with husband that can lead u to jannah.. As we are not perfect, so lets ensure we could help each other in future.. Tegur saya kalau saya terkasar k.. :)

Dear Allah,
Thank you for this journey.. Please bless my marriage and lead us to iman and taqwa.. Please forgive our sins and let us be a better muslim, now and future.. Dear Allah, i love my family more than anyone else.. And soon i will have to love much more people, as my family becomes bigger.. Please Allah, grant me with hidayah that can lead me for a better path for my journey ahead.. Let me build my iman, help me Allah to prevent from doing any sins that could lead me to jahannam.. I hope i cam be a good son to my family, a good husband to my wife, and a good father for my kids..

Sayang,
Ini bakal menjadi pengakhiran persepsi-hati.. Cetusan yang kadangkala terbit dari hati, tertafsir di akal, untuk menilai perjalanan diri.. Selepas ini, sayang akan jadi my persepsi-hati.. Moga sayang faham akan perjalanan saya mencari redha Illahi.. Sayang will become my persepsi-hati soon.. As i must share everything i do with you, right? :) But please let me have my own privacy............. "In the toilet.. :P "

This is my story book for u sayang.. Happy reading, and sweet dream.. :)

"Persepsi dari hati, meruntuh sanubari, agar terbina iman, untuk mereka yang aku kasihi.. Catatan yang terkisar, untuk rujukan dan panduan, agar aku bisa terus menjadi seorang islam yang punya iman dan mampu meneruskan amal soleh.."

Friday, October 4

Assalamualaikum my little diary

Assalamualaikum,

Phew it has been a while..
Miracle happened today, for no reason, i suddenly remember my blog password, then able to access my blog dashboard.. so hello persepsi-hati :)

Alhamdulillah,
Sayang,
As i wrote today, i already 25 years old. having work in electricity industry for the past two years.
Alhamdulillah, for the short period of time, i've made several achievement.
Sayang, i recently received staff of the month award (big clap!), selected by company to be part of the transformation program (Big Big Clap!) in planning the company strategy, listed as 100 young emerging talent (Big Big Big Clap!). it took several determination to reach this level, but nothing will be there without Allah blessing. So, Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah.

Oh yea,
I finished my MBA last month. working while studying on full time basis will not be an easy task. But i managed to do it sayang. Again, Thank You Allah, Alhamdulillah.. (any present for me?? hihi)

Sayang,
if you were my destiny, inshaaAllah, we will getiing marry this coming february. And by that time, i'm pretty sure, i will show you all of this entry of my journey. I've been in a deep sink, pushing hard for a deep breath, hoping for a better life ahead. Is not easy, because i do admit, it is hard for me to forget somebody, but i'm preparing to live without it, starting new life and journey to be with you. InshaaAllah, i will make you happy, taking care of you and our kids, look after our parents, and more importantly, bring our family to Jannah. Ameen..

Sayang,
Thank you for keeping your trust in me, loving me as you always do, and being there when i'm really need it. Being a perfect person for you is impossible, but dont worry, i will try to complement your imperfect part, nicely. (are you hungry while reading this entry? please go and ask me to cook something for you now.. in return, i want to skip for laundry this week :P )

My dearest family,
this blog will remain secretly from you, but i hope i can un-secretly show my love to you guys everyday. will always keep you guys in my du'a, being a good son and sibling, and inshaaAllah, loving you guys till jannah. Thank you for keeping faith and give ur endless support on me.

"Oh Allah the most Merciful, Please bless the family i loved and put them in your Jannah. As i might not be a good servant, but please Allah, bless my parent, forgive their sins, and if, it will take me to carry out their sin in order for them to enter your Jannah, i will love to do so. I love them because of you, and i will do my best to ensure they can enjoy their life thereafter. Thank You Allah, for listening to my du'a. Please show me the best path, to be a good servant and khalifah in this journey of life. Ameen.."


Sunday, September 16

Assalamualaikum.. :)

It has been ages since my last update.. is it? yeah i think so.. Eh2..

Assalamualaikum to all readers
(is there any? hope so.. hehe.. if not, let me be the story teller and let my future wife to read this blog in future.. hi my future wife.. i'm now in the middle of writing something for u.. anyway, if u read this, i'm 24 during this time.. :p )

Lately my life is getting busier with work and study..
Alhamdulillah, my CGPA for 1st semester is not bad at all.. considering i'm working in morning while attending class at night.. Dear,  i'm able to obtain 3.25 CGPA.. its not bad at all..so please, as u read this, i hope u r smiling (and perhaps, bring some present for me.. hihi)

As for working,
It has really being an enjoyable moment sayang. i do love my job and my team mates.. tho at some point there is  some argument, but they really become part of my family. u know sayang, i'm the youngest in my team as the next closer to me is already 31.. hehe.. but i'm sure, somebody will take my crown as the youngest in next years or after.. :D

My Dear,
As to date, many of my friend already getting married.. i'm not sure when is mine.. but at the moment. i do hope to meet u in near future.. i'll keep praying that Allah led me to the most blessing path. so i can continue growth to be a better khalifah in future.

as day passed by,i do realize also, my intention to become a businessman continuously increase. I saw many opportunity in place, but i just waiting for the right time for execution. I do love my job in TNB. but i dont want to waste my time either untuk 'makan gaji' forever. I hope by 30, i can set another benchmark in my life. Which is to own an organization. Tho it might be such a small business.. but i'm totally happy if i can own one. When i say 'organization', it is not just for the sake of name and license of the company..i do target for business continuity in long term manner. (ok sound skema enough.. sayang u might get bored with this paragraph ryte? hihi. sorry)

sayang,
Day is getting closer for my bro engagement. He's getting married by next year. InsyaAllah. Same for my eldest sister as well. its all now depend on Allah faith. I'm too happy if their wish is granted by Allah.. Terutama untuk kak yati. Selepas pemergian arwah abang yus pada tahun 2008, anak-anak beliau membesar tanpa kasih sayang seorang bapa. Justeru ingin juga saya lihat anak-anak dia membesar sempurna seperti sahabat mereka yang lain.

Enough for the update sayang? hei, if u craving for more, why dont you go to me now (as u read this line), and ask me to story more.. (insyaAllah, if i do remembered any stories related till this entry date, i will share with u k.. hihi )

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i do love below song. Sang by Boyce Avenue - Someone like you.. in future i'm not sure whether i still love it.. (and will u able to listen to it sayang?) but for a moment, this song will continuously rang in my ear day after day..


*for you that i used to confess and express my feeling earlier, big thanks for sharing your joy and sadness with me before.*  

haa.. sayang, you may want to ask me bout above line right? go and ask me now.. hihi..

To all my friends, and readers (if any), i will like to make sincere apologize for any mistakes and sins i've made. thank you for continue to be with me and accept me as the way i'm.. i may be not perfect for you, but i really thankful for every moment u guys spend with me. If today be the last day i opened my eyes, i hope u guys can forgive me and continue to pray for my safety in thereafter. Moga Allah merahmati kita semua, dan sayangi keluarga anda k. Ingat! jangan lebihkan sayang kita terhadap orang lain lebih dari kita menyayangi Allah, Rasul, dan Keluarga kita sendiri.. InsyaAllah, moga Allah sentiasa membuka jalan untuk kita supaya terus istiqamah menjadi khalifah di bumi Allah.. amin..